just another day

ok peeps..i am feeling better. i had a super bad day at work yesterday. i was gettin evil. ready to rip some heads off. i had to tell people to not talk to me it was in their best interest. funny how people never listen though. idiots. so i had to put myself into my own world. which means i had to block everyone out bc i was that pissed. i hate that damn job!!

anyway, so i got the pics back from the drunken work out night. lmao funny pictures. i forgot to tell you all that this guy told me i looked fat and made me cry that night. i showed everyone my pic from before going out and everyone said i look great. i even asked like the scariest guy there that wouldnt lie to me. so i felt better. so now im gonna have to send them to jim. lmao i went in the store to pick up these pics and i was scared as hell. i wqas thinking there would be a big label saying xx pics cannot be developed or something like that.lol but nope it was uneventful. thank god. i wonder how many pics of my cootie there are in the world now. lol. i am in the process of talking to jim now. we have made up and are in deep talk about these pics. and he still wants them. so my plan kinda worked. im still upset that he cursed at me..but whatever.

i will be staying home this weekend. even though the people at work asked me 6 times a day everyday to go out this weekend. i dont think they believed me when i said i wasnt going.lol haha i showed them. lol.

in other news.. i talked to my sissy yesterday. and sometimes i really get angry with her. now what sucks is she is what i was at 16. the same attitude..bitchiness and sensitiveness. im not sure why i keep trying to have these certain conversations with her.bc im the one whos always left with built up anger or being sad. bc i dont think she thinks about things and how they will affect me. and i cant continue with the conversation bc she will throw a fit and not talk to me for days. its like a lose lose situation. the other day we had a chat about how she might be graduating this year. which i think this is excellent!! im so happy/proud of her. she will only be turning 17 this year. so i think thats a great accomplishment. i was reading her lj when i found out and she was going on to say how she didnt know what she was gonna do after or where her life would be heading. i told her she should head over here and come live with me. that was a mistake. should have never said it. now granted this whole conversation was all going on when i was severely depressed. this made it worse. anyway, she goes onto say that moving here would not be doing anything good for her. and i said why not? and she said where am i supposed to go? to hicktown U? so that was the first slap. and then i said no they do have good schools around here too ya know. and she kept saying no. and then she said something like how shes just gonna go to college somewhere and shell come see me blah blah blah. and i said yeah about as much as you see me now. and she goes to tell me how I am rude and blah blah blah shell see me when she sees me. that kinda hurt my feelings. like alot. and then she put on her away message. and dissapeared. and i was like hey you come back here. and she was like no she didnt wanna talk about it anymore bc i upset. sighh. thats how all the conversations go and it makes me really mad. but what can you do. my sissy really doesnt wanna live with me. i know its more than just bc i live in the country to. makes me sad