stupid girl

oh my god! what an awful few days ive had. on top of pmsing. this is gonna be a long one. so be prepared and dont say i didnt warn you.

first id like to say haha to my sister who managed to get suspended from scholl. again. before the holidays. again. shes gonna have a lovely xmas break. lmao.

ok so lets go to saturday. so i got up at like 4 30 in the morning with jim cuz he had to go to army and insisted on waking my ass up. ok we didnt even go to bed til 12 30. so i was not a happy camper. i tried to sleep until 7 15 when i actually had to get up for my day of fun. and just when i fell asleep...the damn alarm went off. figures. so i got up and got my professional look going on and left for my hour long drive to my work class. it was soooooooooo boring. they gave you a workers manual and i pretty much colored it the whole time. there was a bunch of under 18 girls there and it was funny as hell cuz when the class was over they were all like watch for this colored car and let me know if its coming. they were smoking ciggies and waiting for there parents. it was too funny for me. so then i drove the hour back. feet killing me and feeling uncomfortable bc it was like the first time ive worn a bra in god knows how long. so i was unhappy. haha. then i had to go babysit my friends kid and mine while she went to go xmas shopping. along with pms and being tired, kids get on my nerves. especially when they tattletale on each other. which there was a lot of. well then jim calls me and somehow we got into this big discussion about xmas and this and that. well we still cant agree on xmas, and then just out of the blue i said your not gonna marry me before you leave are you. and he said no. so i got mad and sad all at once. he said were not at our high point yet. which is a bunch of bullshit. ever notice when you are upset you say things you dont really mean? well i said if we cant agree on our life together and we arent in the same spot, maybe we shouldnt be together anymore. and he said is that what you want? and i was like well im just saying. so i was extremely upset about that. i cried and cried and cried. i couldnt believe it. so finally when randi came home i left and drove home. of course all the sad songs that you believe were made just for you were on. so i cried on the way home too. then i got home and decided to get a pay per view movie to cheer me up. so i got white chicks. funny as hell! i was really enjoying it, when i got a phone call.

it was kim, jims dumb bitch cunt sister. and i dont use the word cunt freely. so you know im mad. anyway first she was asking for jim i said he wasnt here blah blah blah, and then we hung up. well two seconds later she calls back and goes," um do you still talk to jeff?" (jeff is my ex) and i said "what is it your business?" and we went back and forth like that for a few minutes. and finally i said" yea kim why?" and shes like "well does jim know?" and "i was like yea kim he knows. i dont see why you laways gotta try and stir shit up every time that you here something about me. you run home to your mom, you run to jim or whoever and just start fucking problems. mind your own damn business. why you always got to try and get me in trouble?" and do you know that fucking bitch said to me? she goes" well maybe you need to get in trouble so you can straighten your ass out" i was like excuse me? and shes all you heard me. FUCKING BITCH. first of all, its none of her fucking business who i do or dont talk to. second of all, dont pretend you care about your brother when you dont give a shit any other time. third of all, mind your own fucking business you cunt. (clearing throat) sorry bout that. anyway i call jim up and i tell him everything that happened and tell him he better take care of his dumb bitch ssiter before i do. he said ok. i said good cuz im getting tired of this bullshit she keeps starting. i didnt do anything wrong and shes trying to make a big deal of nothing. again. hasnt even been like a month since the last time she caused drama.

well then sunday jim came home from army, and we went to randis for awhile and got some dominoes. god i havent had dominoes in like 8 years. wasnt as good as i remember either. hmm. anyway so we came home and jim called his mom and they talked about him going away and then started talking bout kim and he was yelling and i guess told him to call kim. so remember he yelled at his mom. well then he gets on the phone with kim. and didnt yell once. he doesnt even like her and didnt even yell at her. he was all calm and told her not to be in our business but was nice about it. and get this. jeff didnt come up to her and tell her that we talk. she went up to him and asked him. like a spy. stupid bitch. and then she told jim she didnt like me and blah blah blah. now we used to be friends till she turned into this backstabbing troublestarting bitch. so whatever. then she calls me today to say shes sorry. and you could just tell she didnt even mean it. she was just saying it to try and look like the bigger person. but i know it was fake and she caught an attitude too. and jim expects me to go to his parents house for xmas. yea right. ill kill her. then shell have a real reason to start trouble. bitch.

anyway, so thats todays entry. hahaha sorry it was so vulgar. talk to you later