january 4th

hello all it is i jerzee. well yesterday i spent about 3 hours doing xmas decorations. and fluffing out my 4 ft fake white xmas tree. hehe. that was the easy part. let me tell you how the outside was a bitch though. after 3 hours i was like hell with it. good enough for today. then i came in to mess with another string of lights and finally got it to work. yayyyyy. while i was trying to fix them my jimmy came home. he came home early to surprize me. i got on him bout that thing with the guys at work, and he said that wasnt why they were mad. ok whatever. well then he checked his email......and january 4th is when he leaves. thats only like a lil more than 4 weeks away. im so upset.(sniff sniff) he asked why i was so upset when i knew it was gonna happen, and i said because its such a short time away, and next weekend he has army, the weekend after that is his bday, so well be with his friends. the weekend after that is xmas, so well be with his family. and the weekend after that is new years so the friends will be around again and then well have to go see his family. all other days hes gotta work. so where is my special alone time? any available time he has open his mom is gonna snatch up like last time. and through all this, i aint even gonna get a stupid ring. and he told me to chill out. that he was gonna take 2 weeks off of work, and i through in that your mom will steal you for.(im greedy and unwilling to share, i know) well i sulked for awhile and then we got in the shower, and as he was scrubbing me he was humming the here comes the bride song(does it have a different name?) and i asked why he was singing it, and he said, cant i be excited? does that mean what i think it means?(cheesing) i hope so. god i dont want him to go.

my life sux. i hate bush. and in risk of sounding like a bad movie..why cant we all just get along?

well his parents are supposed to come over today, yippee, and i have to battle with some more damn xmas lights. funny how xmas is only 20 days away and i dont even care. hmm. sometimes i wish i was a lil girl again. like back when i believed in santa. seems like thats when life was good, and you didnt have to worry bout these things

ttyl