bleh

well tomorrow is my bday and i could care less. i was excited but now i just dont care. i doubt ill get any phone calls from people and i know i wont be able to talk to jim and i have nothing to do so....bleh

this will probably be the worst bday ive ever had in my life. up till now i havent had a bad one. but there is a first for everything. i know you guys are probably thinking im a whiner and shutup lol, but i dont care. my bday has always been a big deal to me. ever since i was a little kid. when i was little i remember waking up on my bday to a mountain of presents like it was xmas. and every year after that it was the same. when i worked at herr's everyone would get together and pitch in to throw me a bday party with a big cake tons of balloons and a crad signed by everybody in the plant. noone else got that. i was special. bc everyone loved me. i think ive lost my touch. lol i dunno

sighhh

today in nj,well yesterday actually yesterday, one of my sisters 16 yr old friends was murdered. MURDERED! i cant believe it. by two other 16 yr olds and an 18 yr old. wtf is wrong with kids? we didnt do that shit when i was little. its just awful!!. heres the story:

Randolph girl's body is found in trunk Police say teens tried to dump her in river Monday, August 01, 2005BY BILL SWAYZE AND MAURA McDERMOTT Star-Ledger Staff A 16-year-old Randolph girl was found brutally slain early yesterday as three teens attempted to dump her body, which was stuffed in a steamer trunk, into the Passaic River from a bridge in Secaucus, authorities said. Jonathan Zarate, an 18-year-old Randolph resident, has been charged with murder and is being held on $1 million bail, said Morris County Prosecutor Michael M. Rubbinaccio. Two other teens, a 16-year-old from Randolph and a 16-year-old from Clifton, were also taken into custody, but no charges had been filed as of late last night, Rubbinaccio said. He declined to name the victim, because she is a juvenile, although law enforcement sources identified her as a 16-year-old Randolph High School student. AdvertisementThe cause of death was determined to be multiple blows with a blunt instrument to her head and body, though there were also stab wounds, Rubbinaccio said. The slaying allegedly took place at Zarate's home on Old Brookside Road in Randolph. Early yesterday morning, Secaucus police spotted a suspicious car stopped on the Route 3 bridge over the Passaic River in Hudson County, Rubbinaccio said. When officers investigated, they found the three teens attempting to toss a steamer trunk into the river, the prosecutor said. Officers prevented the teens from dumping the trunk, and when they opened it they discovered the victim's body, Rubbinaccio said. The motive for the slaying was under investigation, he said. Susan Austin, who lives next door to Zarate on Old Brookside Road, said the Zarates had a large family party on Saturday and she heard "Happy Birthday" being sung in Spanish. Yesterday, Randolph police were investigating the disappearance of a 16-year-old girl who neighbors identified as Jennifer Parks. It was unclear whether there was a link between the disappearance of Parks and the Randolph murder investigation. Parks lives next door to Zarate. Austin said police investigating Parks' disappearance asked her if the teen had any boyfriends that her parents might not have known. She said police did not offer her any information about how Parks went missing. "It's an investigation, that's all they would say," Austin said. "My heart just went. There's nothing worse that can happen to a parent than this," Austin said of the teen's disappearance. "I'm going to offer whatever help I can give. It rips out your stomach it's so scary." Austin's 15-year-old son, Kyle Kerlin, attends school with Parks. Kerlin said Parks is a quiet girl who studies hard and enjoys reading, particularly Harry Potter books. She often swims in the above-ground pool in her backyard or jumps on a trampoline, Kerlin said. "She's kind of like the quiet type," Kerlin said. "She's a nice girl, kind." When Kerlin moved to the neighborhood more than two years ago, Parks helped him get settled at the middle school. "The first day I moved here, she showed me where the guidance office was and she let me sit next to her on the bus," Kerlin said. Old Brookside Road remained cordoned off last night by police tape, and patrol cars were parked along the typically quiet residential street.