another year, another tax return

so yea..i am still bitter about the dad and his fucked up bullshit...but i will get over it soon i suppose.

not much else going on. i had my year review at work the other day. and it was the biggest bunch of bullshit i have ever heard. i got a 27cent raise..and i was supposed to be happy about this bc it was a 3% raise instead of the 2% one that was the cost of living raise.yippee..was i supposed to jump for joy? then he told me i do excellent work but im not a team player. its a damn good thing i had my happy drugs in me..or it wouldve been ugly. are you fucking kidding me? im not a team plaer? i work with the most miserable bitch in the world every single day and i havent quit yet..if that isnt a team fucking player. then he said that i dont work well with others. i told him everyone here loves me. i am friendly with everyone here and everyone goes out of there way to talk to me...how do i not work well with others. and then he was like well you are always on me and arguing blah blah blah....i was like so bc i try to joke with you like everyone else does and i dont kiss your ass and tell you how i really feel..that makes me not work well with others? he didnt really like that much..but i dont fucking care. then he pointed out the team sign..the one that says together everyone achieves more...and said something about it. i said that sign is a fucking joke!!! there is no team out there...so i was pissed. then i told him i want out of the dept i am ion. he tried to feed me bullshit about how i was good at what im doing now. i told him i can be good at anything. i can learn fast and excel at whatever i do. i always have. then he tried to pull the im a girl card. now you all know im a bitch. so you know what happened. he was like oh what you think you can go and work in the mat dept and i was like hell yea i can. he was like yea oh right..vanessa those mats are 60lbs each. i looked him dead in his eye and said..so? what you think bc i am a girl i cant lift 60lbs? my child ways 60lbs and i can pick him up and fling him around like it was nothing. then he got all mad and started bitching bc i was bitching asking why i was fighting with him. and i told him bc this review is bullshit. i couldnt stop cursing at him.lol.shocker..i know.

then he told me i could do better at my job. ARE YOU FUCKING KIDDING ME? you cant get much better at what i do. not to be all conceited sounding but you cant. i kick ass...and im not a robot..i cant push myself any harder then what i do now..i know bc i have tried already..so whatever...i hate my job.


yesterday i got my taxes done..and for all my old friends..you know this means lots and lots of shopping. and you know how much shopping makes me happy. yayyyyy. i got $4400 back. i cant wait to spend some. my friend benito from jersey is coming down for the weekend. there is talk of going clubbing. im super excited..i really need a night out.

hope you all are good