lifes a bitch..again

hello friends. sorry ive been so shitty but well you know. ok lets do a quick backtrack. new years eve, god soooo wasted. it was fun. i got confetti everywhere. still cleaning it up. new years day..soooooooo hungover. day after that we had to go to jims parents. which is always fun. monday we did a nothing really but have quality time. which was nice. until his parents butted in. at about 8 that night, the army people called and said that jim would be able to come back here on tues,weds,and thursday nights and that he would leave today around 11 am. so i was happy. we spent those nights together and had a blast. i didnt even cry. (yayyyyy). then last night came. i cried from 3 30 to 4 30. and then 7-11 when we went to bed. then i got up with him at 1 30 am cuz he had to leave by 2. and cried from 1 30- 3-30 and then had to get up for work. lemme tell you how i woke up and was scared of myself. my whole face was swollen. i was like whoa. so i tried to get out of work but no go. i cried all the way to work. i saw some of my friends and as soon as they saw me they asked the dumb question which is are you ok? which when you are sad always makes you cry again. so again i cried. and then the bitch supervisor called me in the office to bitch at me cuz i was so miserable looking. when your face is as swollen as mine, you really have no choice other then to look miserable. and she kept asking me what my deal was and i said im having a bad week. and in her bitch voice she said everyone has a bad week vanessa you just have to get through it. i said oh im gonna and i quit!!!!!! probably a dumb idea but i hate the way they treat me there anyway. its not like it was a real spectacular job anyway. i dont know about you but when im sad i shop. so i went and bought a new ferret, which is named cinnamon bc it is colored like cinnamon. and two hamsters for austin. hes not home from school yet so they are nameless. and a really kick ass cage for them with all these neat tunnels. and now i feel better. tomorrow ill get 4 more tattoos and ill be a happy camper. oh and i ordered a copy of the 1996 version of romeo and juliet cuz its my favorite. but i rented it too. and im gonna go watch it with some ben and jerrys and cry.

hope everyone is well