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MELTDOWN IN ACTION.....
so im feeling really crappy today. yesterday was a decent day. i called jims phone and it actually rang instead of forwarding me to the voicemail. so i was like YAYYYYY! thinking we were gonna be able to chat. cuz its been like 2 weeks. so i called and left a few messages. well at like 9 30 pm i called again and no answer. i told him in one of my previous messages, that i would leave my cell on so that he could call no matter what the time. before i went to bed i called to see if he heard the message and he did. i went to bed and i woke up every hour checking my phone to see if i missed the call. i didnt miss any calls. he never called. i tried to call again this morning and it still rang. i sent a text message thinking maybe hed text me one back. nothing. i called again later today and he had his phone off. this makes me sad. 15 days and no jim. i know i should be excited cuz hes coming home soon. but i just wanna hear his voice. sighhhh
crappy thing number 2: so i get up before work and i come here to the comp and check things out. like my sisters lj thing. and it she was talking about cutting again. this upsets me greatly with no need to explain. i hate that she is so stressed out she feels she needs to cut herself to ease the problem. i went to work and it was country day again and there is a song that makes me think of her called my sister my friend. i cried. i miss my sister. i wish she wouldnt hurt herself. scares me. what if she cuts too deep in the wrong spot? i couldnt deal... i dont wanna talk about that anymore.
crappy thing number 3: i really hate my damn job. i hate when they give me things i dont know how to do and give me a picture with it that doesnt make any damn sense. it frustrates me greatly. and the cunt bitch wont help. grrrr... dont wanna talk about that either.
so today is not one of the days where i shall continue practicing quitting smoking. im gonna be a motherfucking chimney and im gonna drown myself in alcahol..fuck it i cant spell it right now.
good thing about yesterday though. i made up wioth my friend who dumped me awhile ago. but it doesnt seem to be enough to cheer me up right now
so im feeling really crappy today. yesterday was a decent day. i called jims phone and it actually rang instead of forwarding me to the voicemail. so i was like YAYYYYY! thinking we were gonna be able to chat. cuz its been like 2 weeks. so i called and left a few messages. well at like 9 30 pm i called again and no answer. i told him in one of my previous messages, that i would leave my cell on so that he could call no matter what the time. before i went to bed i called to see if he heard the message and he did. i went to bed and i woke up every hour checking my phone to see if i missed the call. i didnt miss any calls. he never called. i tried to call again this morning and it still rang. i sent a text message thinking maybe hed text me one back. nothing. i called again later today and he had his phone off. this makes me sad. 15 days and no jim. i know i should be excited cuz hes coming home soon. but i just wanna hear his voice. sighhhh
crappy thing number 2: so i get up before work and i come here to the comp and check things out. like my sisters lj thing. and it she was talking about cutting again. this upsets me greatly with no need to explain. i hate that she is so stressed out she feels she needs to cut herself to ease the problem. i went to work and it was country day again and there is a song that makes me think of her called my sister my friend. i cried. i miss my sister. i wish she wouldnt hurt herself. scares me. what if she cuts too deep in the wrong spot? i couldnt deal... i dont wanna talk about that anymore.
crappy thing number 3: i really hate my damn job. i hate when they give me things i dont know how to do and give me a picture with it that doesnt make any damn sense. it frustrates me greatly. and the cunt bitch wont help. grrrr... dont wanna talk about that either.
so today is not one of the days where i shall continue practicing quitting smoking. im gonna be a motherfucking chimney and im gonna drown myself in alcahol..fuck it i cant spell it right now.
good thing about yesterday though. i made up wioth my friend who dumped me awhile ago. but it doesnt seem to be enough to cheer me up right now
posted by naughtygirl @ 4:24 PM
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