a happy post for once

so right this very second i am talking to jim. and have been for the last 3 hours and 10 minutes. i am a happy camper. yayyyy


first off let me just start by telling you...a very large yucky spider just crawled over my face.ewwwwwwwwwwwwwwww i hate spiders. like alot. all sizes..all kinds. yucky. i about flipped a shit when i saw it was a spder. needless to say it is dead now.

ok i think my last real post was a drunken one that noone read.lol..so lets see that was friday night. saturday i told austin we would have a movie night. wed pick a bunch of our old movies, get alot of junk food and watch movies all day. and dont you know we went and got all the junk..set up the room so he could eat out by the tv too, and the fucking dvd player wouldnt open? poor kid. he was sad. but luckily monsters inc was on that night so we watched that. then me and randi had a fight and she dumped me. said i was "rubbing off on her". that i was miserable all the time and negative. and bitchy. bitchy i will claim. but negative and miserable? no. i admit i get sadlike when i dont hear from jim. but i am not negative and miserable. SHE is. shes always saying life sucks. and that me and jim will never make it. and jim loves army more than me, and men are pigs. and jims fucking a girl in iraq, and her back hurts all the time, and shes tired of the guy living with her..and blah blah blah. i am happy 95% of the time. its her thats all the other stuff. well anyway, she dumped me. so i am friendless here. im over it. shes dumb, whatever

sunday i did nothing. jims parents came here and it was relatively painless. no fights or smartass comments. oh and guess what?!?!?!?!

IM GOING HOME FOR XMAS!!! YAYYYYYYYY!!!!

me and my bibsy planned it out carefully and i will be home for the holidays. im so fucking happy!! yayy

and for a sweet lovey jim and vanessa moment....:

JeRzEeGrLiNmD: baby i really dont wanna be surprized
JeRzEeGrLiNmD: i want you to tell me when you are coming home
jiminiraq2005: why
JeRzEeGrLiNmD: so i can be there to get you
JeRzEeGrLiNmD: why do you wanna surprize me so much? you didnt like it last time
jiminiraq2005: its fun
JeRzEeGrLiNmD: why is it fun?
jiminiraq2005: dont know
JeRzEeGrLiNmD: i dont wanna surprize
jiminiraq2005: itas fun
jiminiraq2005: you like it
JeRzEeGrLiNmD: not these days baby
JeRzEeGrLiNmD: i am unamused
JeRzEeGrLiNmD: i want to be there the second you can go home
jiminiraq2005: when tis is over ill be home for good
JeRzEeGrLiNmD: yea right
JeRzEeGrLiNmD: maybe for a year if im lucky
jiminiraq2005: why do you say that
JeRzEeGrLiNmD: bc even when you come home you arent truly done with the army
JeRzEeGrLiNmD: they can make you go back again
JeRzEeGrLiNmD: and you may re-enlist
JeRzEeGrLiNmD: ??????
jiminiraq2005: why do you say that
JeRzEeGrLiNmD: what that you may re-enlist
JeRzEeGrLiNmD: bc i really beleive you will
JeRzEeGrLiNmD: you love army whether you wanna tell me or not
jiminiraq2005: why'JeRzEeGrLiNmD: you made that clear when you were here on break
JeRzEeGrLiNmD: i dunno why you love it
jiminiraq2005: me either
JeRzEeGrLiNmD: and even the last time we talked you got upset bc you thought i was making you choose
JeRzEeGrLiNmD: so if it seems you have to "choose" which you love more and you dont like that thought...then obviously you love it
jiminiraq2005: i dont know
jiminiraq2005: i really dont like it now
JeRzEeGrLiNmD: well i hope you dont..then maybe we can actually be TOGETHER forever
JeRzEeGrLiNmD: i hate being away from you. i dont want to make you choose..but i cant do this any more..and i wont
JeRzEeGrLiNmD: i cant be alone like this..it makes me crazy
jiminiraq2005: im sorry
JeRzEeGrLiNmD: dont be sorry baby
JeRzEeGrLiNmD: its not your fault
JeRzEeGrLiNmD: its like you said.. i knew you were in the army when we got together
JeRzEeGrLiNmD: im sorry im not a stronger girl baby
JeRzEeGrLiNmD: id like to be..but im not
jiminiraq2005: i love you
JeRzEeGrLiNmD: even though im weak?
jiminiraq2005: yea
JeRzEeGrLiNmD: i got a question
JeRzEeGrLiNmD: if you could change stuff about me would?
JeRzEeGrLiNmD: you?
jiminiraq2005: never thought about that before

and then....

JeRzEeGrLiNmD: did you read my other emails?
jiminiraq2005: ok
JeRzEeGrLiNmD: like the one about turkey day and stuff?
jiminiraq2005: yea wish i could be there
JeRzEeGrLiNmD: lol to watch me fuck up the turkey?
jiminiraq2005: to eat the first turkey you ever cooked
JeRzEeGrLiNmD: awww baby that was sweet
JeRzEeGrLiNmD: i kinda feel like crying
JeRzEeGrLiNmD: you know
JeRzEeGrLiNmD: even though you are there and its shitty for you..and i hate being alone..
JeRzEeGrLiNmD: us being apart..it makes you kinda romantic like
JeRzEeGrLiNmD: i like it
jiminiraq2005: sorry
JeRzEeGrLiNmD: why are you sorry?
jiminiraq2005: messing with you
JeRzEeGrLiNmD: messing with me by saying sorry? or messing with me like you arent romantic you are just pretending to be?
jiminiraq2005: saying sorry
JeRzEeGrLiNmD: ok good
JeRzEeGrLiNmD: bc i was gonna be pissed if you said the other thing
JeRzEeGrLiNmD: haha

and now a little smart ass
jiminiraq2005: its cold as hell righ tnow
JeRzEeGrLiNmD: really?
JeRzEeGrLiNmD: its actually kinda warm here
jiminiraq2005: its like 65
JeRzEeGrLiNmD: yea about that here too
JeRzEeGrLiNmD: but compared to what it was its warm
JeRzEeGrLiNmD: lol you wanna talk about the weather?
jiminiraq2005: i was just making small talk
JeRzEeGrLiNmD: ok good job
JeRzEeGrLiNmD: now make big talk
jiminiraq2005: ITS LIKE 65 HERE COLD AS HELL
JeRzEeGrLiNmD: lmmfao
JeRzEeGrLiNmD: smart ass
JeRzEeGrLiNmD: you know what i meant
JeRzEeGrLiNmD: talk to me about something i care about
JeRzEeGrLiNmD: i dont care about the weather
JeRzEeGrLiNmD: such a ounk
JeRzEeGrLiNmD: oops i mean punk
jiminiraq2005: im healthy
JeRzEeGrLiNmD: thats good
jiminiraq2005: my pubs are long as hell
JeRzEeGrLiNmD: ewwww
JeRzEeGrLiNmD: lmao

hahaha. so i am in a good mood. life is good

oh yea. i forgot. i opened up a myspace account. and i found all kinds of kids from high school. that made my day too!@