ok im back

i wasn;t gone too long. lol..im still way stressed..but i can write now. i still cant tell you what set me off. im not allowed. it has to do with jim..but its like top secret shit apparently. and i dont wanna talk about it. i want to pretend it never happened. ok? so dont ask.

but besides that me and jim fought all night along with the secret stuff. it was an awful day..i cried all night long and the next day too. it was awful. im feeling better..although i wish he was here next to me right now instead of me sitting here for the third day making him the 27th cd. im tired of making these damn things. but whatever keeps him happy. i did read on the yahoo news that they will most likely start pulling troops out after the elections. i asked jim if he'd heard anything about it and he said something about may. so that made me happy. it seems like we fight alot when he is away. and i think thats bc we cant seem to understand each others situations. i have been trying really hard not to fight with him..but it doesnt always work. sighh. this happened when he was gone last time. im a mess without him. and i am selfish too. i will admit it. but what can you do. everyone please pray for my lover to come home soon before i have a real breakdown. oh and that he makes it here safely and stuff!!


have a happy turkey day everyone!