and i heard him say....

hello hello. well it seems i have lost my damn mind. me and jim didnt fight yesterday..exactly. but it wasnt a great talk. im starting to think that im not good for him over there. i beleive that the reasons we fight is me. he is so angry and stuff and just says shitty things and sometimes i cant hold back although i know inside i need to.

JeRzEeGrLiNmD: i just dont feel the damn love
JeRzEeGrLiNmD: i need to go smoke
jiminiraq2005: sorry
JeRzEeGrLiNmD: ill brb
jiminiraq2005: why
jiminiraq2005: no
JeRzEeGrLiNmD: bc im so mad
jiminiraq2005: dont go
JeRzEeGrLiNmD: and
JeRzEeGrLiNmD: god
jiminiraq2005: god
jiminiraq2005: and
jiminiraq2005: ok
JeRzEeGrLiNmD: i dont wanna talk to you anymore if this is how its gonna be all the time
JeRzEeGrLiNmD: it does nothing good for either of us
jiminiraq2005: ok
jiminiraq2005: how can it be fixed
JeRzEeGrLiNmD: i dont know anymore
JeRzEeGrLiNmD: im feeling like it will never be fixed
JeRzEeGrLiNmD: i love you so much and i dont want to fight with you
JeRzEeGrLiNmD: but it seems like thats all that happens
jiminiraq2005: it is
JeRzEeGrLiNmD: and it kills me
jiminiraq2005: me too
JeRzEeGrLiNmD: do you think we shouldnt be together anymore?
jiminiraq2005: why so you sask me what do you think
JeRzEeGrLiNmD: no you answer me first
jiminiraq2005: you answer me
JeRzEeGrLiNmD: sometimes i feel like we shouldnt be together
JeRzEeGrLiNmD: but i love you too much to let you go
JeRzEeGrLiNmD: id rather fight every day with you then never have you at all
JeRzEeGrLiNmD: if that makes sense
jiminiraq2005: i dont liek fighting
jiminiraq2005: i love you too
JeRzEeGrLiNmD: so you would rather not have me?
jiminiraq2005: i dont know
jiminiraq2005: i love you
JeRzEeGrLiNmD: i love you too
JeRzEeGrLiNmD: but would you rather not have me then fight with me?
jiminiraq2005: i dont knwo
jiminiraq2005: what do you think
JeRzEeGrLiNmD: its not what i think jim
JeRzEeGrLiNmD: i want you to tell me what you think
JeRzEeGrLiNmD: i answered my part
jiminiraq2005: so did i
jiminiraq2005: what do you think
JeRzEeGrLiNmD: no you didnt
JeRzEeGrLiNmD: you just said you love me
jiminiraq2005: yes then you asked another question involving my answer
JeRzEeGrLiNmD: ok so you would rather not have me?
jiminiraq2005: see i said
jiminiraq2005: i love you
jiminiraq2005: i dont like fighting
jiminiraq2005: ythen you asked
jiminiraq2005: would you rather not hve me then figt
jiminiraq2005: waht do you think
JeRzEeGrLiNmD: that you think the same as me?
jiminiraq2005: yea
jiminiraq2005: so what do you think
JeRzEeGrLiNmD: baby i started this conversation
JeRzEeGrLiNmD: i already said what i think
jiminiraq2005: ok
jiminiraq2005: so did i
jiminiraq2005: then you asked anotherr questuion
JeRzEeGrLiNmD: dammit
jiminiraq2005: so asked you what you think again
JeRzEeGrLiNmD: i love you so much and i know we have a godd thing
JeRzEeGrLiNmD: do you think we do?
JeRzEeGrLiNmD: like under normal circumstances?
jiminiraq2005: ea
JeRzEeGrLiNmD: like if you were home would you think so badly of us together?
jiminiraq2005: i think you hete that i dont have time to think
JeRzEeGrLiNmD: i knew the very first time i saw you that i wanted to be with you
jiminiraq2005: i have to stay a liv eso i can get home
JeRzEeGrLiNmD: and i know i want to be with you forever
jiminiraq2005: i know you were pesistant
JeRzEeGrLiNmD: before we were even us i knew i loved you
JeRzEeGrLiNmD: and i would forever
JeRzEeGrLiNmD: and i mean it
jiminiraq2005: ok
jiminiraq2005: you hate that i amnot always thinking about you
JeRzEeGrLiNmD: is me being persistent the only thing i had going for me beside my tits
JeRzEeGrLiNmD: i do
JeRzEeGrLiNmD: but i understand that you cant
JeRzEeGrLiNmD: i really do even though it doesnt seem that way
jiminiraq2005: and that what starts fights
jiminiraq2005: you put me on the spot to anser auestions i dont think about
jiminiraq2005: and then get mad when i cant answer them
JeRzEeGrLiNmD: but love
JeRzEeGrLiNmD: it shouldnt be that hard to answer some of them
JeRzEeGrLiNmD: it really shouldnt
jiminiraq2005: ok
jiminiraq2005: im sorry
jiminiraq2005: i an
JeRzEeGrLiNmD: i know
JeRzEeGrLiNmD: i guess you are right
JeRzEeGrLiNmD: it kills me that it seems like you never think of me
JeRzEeGrLiNmD: and all i do is think of you
JeRzEeGrLiNmD: maybe we shouldnt talk anymore
JeRzEeGrLiNmD: i dont want to be the reason you get hurt
jiminiraq2005: thats funy
JeRzEeGrLiNmD: i dont want to be what your parents said i would be
jiminiraq2005: for some reason
JeRzEeGrLiNmD: whats funny
jiminiraq2005: you saying we shouldnt talk
JeRzEeGrLiNmD: why?
jiminiraq2005: i dont knwo i smerked a liitle
JeRzEeGrLiNmD: well it shouldnt have made you laugh
jiminiraq2005: sorry
JeRzEeGrLiNmD: are you laughing bc you think im not serious?
jiminiraq2005: yea
jiminiraq2005: about he no more talking
JeRzEeGrLiNmD: i dont want to stress you out so much that you get hurt
jiminiraq2005: ok
JeRzEeGrLiNmD: but it seems like thats all im good for
jiminiraq2005: i wont i know the diffence from this and working
jiminiraq2005: when i go out its gotime
jiminiraq2005: the only time we have bad days is when we dont have anything to talk about
jiminiraq2005: are you ther
JeRzEeGrLiNmD: im here
jiminiraq2005: what are you doing
JeRzEeGrLiNmD: im just staring at the screen
JeRzEeGrLiNmD: i want you home
jiminiraq2005: i though you wernt upset
JeRzEeGrLiNmD: i dont know what i am
jiminiraq2005: i think youare tiered
JeRzEeGrLiNmD: no
JeRzEeGrLiNmD: im tired of being alone
jiminiraq2005: you need soem dick
JeRzEeGrLiNmD: and im tired of the computer
JeRzEeGrLiNmD: and oo yea i need that
JeRzEeGrLiNmD: definitely need that
JeRzEeGrLiNmD: but i need some love
JeRzEeGrLiNmD: and i really think that is my problem
JeRzEeGrLiNmD: i cant love you
JeRzEeGrLiNmD: i know you arent a romantic person
jiminiraq2005: i cant help you sorry
JeRzEeGrLiNmD: i know you dont say sweet things
JeRzEeGrLiNmD: and i know all this
JeRzEeGrLiNmD: but when you are here
JeRzEeGrLiNmD: i can feel it
jiminiraq2005: if me and you werent me and you you could do what youa want


and it just goes on and on...sighhhh

have i said lately i hate bush? bc i really fucking do. i dopnt know how much more i can take. i just want him home with me.

JeRzEeGrLiNmD: why are you always trying to break up with me?
jiminiraq2005: so you arnt like this
jiminiraq2005: cause i dont liek being resposable for you bsing like this
JeRzEeGrLiNmD: baby do you really think i would be happier if i wasnt with you?
jiminiraq2005: i dont know
JeRzEeGrLiNmD: all i want is you
JeRzEeGrLiNmD: noone else will ever be to me what you are
JeRzEeGrLiNmD: if i cant have you i dont want anyone
jiminiraq2005: ok
JeRzEeGrLiNmD: please dont ever say that to me again

sigh