im going f-ing crazy

i feel yucky today. i havent heard from my lover since last friday. and that conversation was no good cuz neither of us had good service on the cells,and i was in a packed diner. and i mean packed!!! 12:30am and not a single open seat. lol gotta love jersey and the cheese fries with gravy! anyway, and before that there was a bunch of storms and he had no service so we couldnt talk.

im going crazy and im starting to get in the depression mode again. if i cant have him here, i at least wanna talk to him. and it seems like it never fails that everytime i get into these fits, every damn sappy love song comes on. or every damn show has someone getting married or having sex or something. it fucking sucks. i wanna be all done. like yesterday!!

he keeps telling me that he sent me a card. this is the second one he supposedly sent. now the last one never showed up. he said he mailed this one on friday. it shouldve been here by today the latest. but no card. wtf? im starting to wonder if he really ever sent one. how do 2 cards get lost in the mail?

in my new rubber bracelet obsession i found one i really want. like really bad. its a black bracelet. it has other colors on it too, but i forget what they are. but it says "when bush lies, people die" i really want it. just gotta find a friend with a credit card. that fucker. if he wasnt president, none of this would be happening......