AND WHAT!?! lol

so i talked to my lover yesterday. i finally got him to download instant messenger. we had an ok chat. i guess it wasnt really bad. we had our argument about his re-enlisting. i told him i dont wanna do this anymore. he asked if i was making him choose. and i said no. but i wasnt doing anymore deployments. where he then said well there is a new rule that deployments were only 9 months long now. and i said i dont care. im not doing it again. i hate being alone. i fucking hate it. i hate not being able to touch him and love him and kiss him when i wanna. sighhh. but i put that to rest and this was the end of our chat...well first another part so you can see how hes a smart ass.lol


JeRzEeGrLiNmD: weve been together almost 4 years
jiminiraq2005: really that long lol
JeRzEeGrLiNmD: and 20 months out of those 4 years you havent even been here
JeRzEeGrLiNmD: lol yes love
JeRzEeGrLiNmD: doesnt seem like it does it
jiminiraq2005: i was thinking like two
JeRzEeGrLiNmD: shutup
JeRzEeGrLiNmD: dont even tell me you are serious
jiminiraq2005: but if you say 4 than ok
JeRzEeGrLiNmD: im gonna cry
jiminiraq2005: why
JeRzEeGrLiNmD: bc you said that
JeRzEeGrLiNmD: punk
jiminiraq2005: said what
JeRzEeGrLiNmD: you know damn well its been more than two
jiminiraq2005: thats why there was a lol at the end
JeRzEeGrLiNmD: such a punk
JeRzEeGrLiNmD: you missed the whole point
jiminiraq2005: i got it but
JeRzEeGrLiNmD: but what?
jiminiraq2005: head
JeRzEeGrLiNmD: lol your dumb
JeRzEeGrLiNmD: im trying to be serious
jiminiraq2005: i know and i dont want you to be sad
jiminiraq2005: so im joking
JeRzEeGrLiNmD: you keep telling me how weve got forever to be together and we do..but only if you arent in the army
jiminiraq2005: ill be done in 14 years
JeRzEeGrLiNmD: im not sad..im just stressed and lonely and i wanna have sex and i wanna kiss you and sleep with you
JeRzEeGrLiNmD: oh no
JeRzEeGrLiNmD: no no no no
jiminiraq2005: what
JeRzEeGrLiNmD: no 14 years
JeRzEeGrLiNmD: are you serious?
jiminiraq2005: what?
JeRzEeGrLiNmD: honey now is not the time to play dumb
JeRzEeGrLiNmD: you know what
jiminiraq2005: lol

such a punk..lol and heres the good part

jiminiraq2005: i love you ness talk to you later
JeRzEeGrLiNmD: awww you called me ness
JeRzEeGrLiNmD: oh im gonna cry
JeRzEeGrLiNmD: lol
jiminiraq2005: dont aww me
jiminiraq2005: dont cry
JeRzEeGrLiNmD: happy cry
jiminiraq2005: allright i love you
JeRzEeGrLiNmD: you never call me ness
JeRzEeGrLiNmD: :-D
jiminiraq2005: sweeet dreams
JeRzEeGrLiNmD: sweet dreams baby i love you forever and ever
jiminiraq2005: dont let the bed bugs bite
JeRzEeGrLiNmD: you either
jiminiraq2005: and ever
jiminiraq2005: i have to wach out for them
jiminiraq2005: they got my back a couple of times
JeRzEeGrLiNmD: eww
JeRzEeGrLiNmD: really?
jiminiraq2005: yeah
JeRzEeGrLiNmD: gross
JeRzEeGrLiNmD: see all the more reason you need to be here with me
jiminiraq2005: then the ness bugs would bite me
JeRzEeGrLiNmD: but at least the ness bugs will kiss it better

hehe i love that he called me ness. he enver calls me that. ive been telling him for years that noone calls me vanessa. only strangers or aquaintances. everyone calls me ness nessa nesser nessie or something like that. its funny everytime he goes somewhere he calls me something. in bosnia he called me baby. in mississippi he called me love. and now i am ness..well love too. lol

god i miss him