just for once...
just for once id like to have a blog i can post with happy thoughts. but it seems like everyday some bullshit is going on. unbelievable. i feel cursed. big sigh....
everyone always tells me to be happy and positive like and all that stuff. and i really try but it seems like something is always happening to just shoot those thoughts right down where they came from and i hate it. i wish i was a little kid again and didnt have to deal with all this bullshit. but i dont know how to build a time machine. dammit!! should have paid more attention in school.
ok so i wake up today and try to make my interview time earlier so i can beat out the snow. unfortunately the lady was busy when i called and when she called back it was too late so i had to just wait for 2 oclock. so at 10:30 i go outside to smoke a ciggie. everything was fine. i go out at 11:20 and holy hell its like a blizzard. i was like well shit. i dont do snow. ever since i wrecked in the rain i dont drive unless its sunny or cloudy. ill do rain if i must. but fuck the snow. so i debate for about an hour on whether or not im gonna go and then decide im not. i rescheduled my interview for 10am tomorrow. so well see how that goes. good thing i didnt cuz there was like 2 inches at 2. the time i was supposed to be there. now lets just hope it all miraculously melts by 9:30am. probably not but..whatever.
so then i went to the bus stop to get austin and brent(the roomie) came home. so i went to go smoke with him and learned that today is the day that hes moving out. god damn. so now in the big ass blizzard were gonna get on sat and sunday im gonna be in this damn house all a fucking lone. i hate being alone and even feeling alone. and everyone keeps saying chin up and all that stuff and i get mad. i aprreciate the thoughts and stuff but nobody understands what im feeling. ya know? i dunno. i just dunno. i feel like im gonna have a major breakdown any damn minute.
life sucks. not all the time but right now it sucks!!!
im gonna go take my negative ass to bed now.
heres to a better day tomorrow....
BIG SIGGGGHHHHHH......................................
everyone always tells me to be happy and positive like and all that stuff. and i really try but it seems like something is always happening to just shoot those thoughts right down where they came from and i hate it. i wish i was a little kid again and didnt have to deal with all this bullshit. but i dont know how to build a time machine. dammit!! should have paid more attention in school.
ok so i wake up today and try to make my interview time earlier so i can beat out the snow. unfortunately the lady was busy when i called and when she called back it was too late so i had to just wait for 2 oclock. so at 10:30 i go outside to smoke a ciggie. everything was fine. i go out at 11:20 and holy hell its like a blizzard. i was like well shit. i dont do snow. ever since i wrecked in the rain i dont drive unless its sunny or cloudy. ill do rain if i must. but fuck the snow. so i debate for about an hour on whether or not im gonna go and then decide im not. i rescheduled my interview for 10am tomorrow. so well see how that goes. good thing i didnt cuz there was like 2 inches at 2. the time i was supposed to be there. now lets just hope it all miraculously melts by 9:30am. probably not but..whatever.
so then i went to the bus stop to get austin and brent(the roomie) came home. so i went to go smoke with him and learned that today is the day that hes moving out. god damn. so now in the big ass blizzard were gonna get on sat and sunday im gonna be in this damn house all a fucking lone. i hate being alone and even feeling alone. and everyone keeps saying chin up and all that stuff and i get mad. i aprreciate the thoughts and stuff but nobody understands what im feeling. ya know? i dunno. i just dunno. i feel like im gonna have a major breakdown any damn minute.
life sucks. not all the time but right now it sucks!!!
im gonna go take my negative ass to bed now.
heres to a better day tomorrow....
BIG SIGGGGHHHHHH......................................
posted by naughtygirl @ 3:26 PM
4 Comments:
At 6:08 PM,
naughtygirl said…
yea im ok. this was a couple of years ago, but when i wrecked i busted up my face and now i have a lumpy lip and a big scar. i hate it. so i am a paranoid driver now.
At 8:15 PM,
Queen on the run said…
okay okay sheesh wallow in your misery for a day and just let it all out,sink into a hot bathtub and cry and rant and rave and yell and scream and let it all out, I suggest doing this while the boy is in school though...Hmm I have had a couple of break downs they are not fun but sure as heck you feel better after words let me tell ya..Good luck on the interview tomarrow I hope the snow melts by 9:30 am!
We are having some weird very warm weather here in Washington right now,it was damn near 70 today,I still have windows open and the door,it is soooo warm,its because we are getting the pineapple express warm air current from hawaii!!! In the middle of winter!!! YAY!!! I want to move to HAwaii sooo bad,I don't think I would ever be depressed there ever!
At 4:46 AM,
Pep said…
Hey, Jerzee! I is here! Firstly, apologies for not commenting earlier, due to my being... well rubbish!
Now then:
"life sucks. not all the time... heres to a better day tomorrow..."
Positivity, have you had your + sign today? You don't need anyone to do it because you're doing it for yorself already. Recognise that.
:)
At 11:06 AM,
boabhan sith said…
It sucks every other day around here so I can relate...completely!
I hope it gets better for you and if it does send some of it my way.
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