WTF?
again WTF? ok i woke up today feeling very disturbed. now its probably nothing at all, but goddamnit!! ever since i saw jeff the other day, at night ive been dreaming of him. and in my dreams we are always a couple. why is this? why am i dreaming of someone i loved once instead of the man i love to death now? is my mind in some sort of denial? i know that im not. jim is a much nicer person than jeff ever was to me. now there are a few things about jeff that i wish jim had, but overall i LOVE jim. this is really bothering/upsetting me alot.
i know that im over jeff. even when i talked to him the other day i could tell that. when i told him to tell me if he didnt like me or not it wouldnt hurt my feelings, it was the first time it was ever true. he will never make me cry again i will never go back to feeling so unimportant again.never. so again WTF? why am i dreaming of him.
i kinda feel like crying. i really dont like this. youre probably thinking im a looney, and its no big deal. but it is. jim is the man of dreams. well theres a few mistakes, but mostly. jeff i thought was, but in the end i realized he was just an asshole with a good front.
when me and jeff first got together, he seemed so perfect. ALWAYS complimented me, new the difference in my makeup, perfume all the things that seemed so important. he was nice too. but lil did i know that everytime i was seeing him, he was seeing at least 2 others. in the beginning it broke my heart, then i didnt care just as long as i could have him(blushing). and eventually i grew to fall in love with him. even though we made plans 21 times that he never showed up for or called. but when he did show up i was in heaven. it was always great fun. right before i met jim jeff went through a change. a few months before i told him that i had fallen in love with him. then he left me to be with another girl. i was crushed but i still tried. im very persistant. anyway, he was finally all about me, and it seemed like we could really be together. then i met jim......
one day at work.. i saw a hot guy in a 2001 dark blue celica and he was fine!!!!! i was in mid conversation and he walked past me and i forgot what i was saying and just stared. i scoped around and found out who he was. everyone said he was a cocky asshole. but i was up for a challenge. the more we got to know each other,the less i saw jeff. i was falling hardcore for jim. he was so cool. we would hang out til 6am just talking. we never had to do anything or go anywhere, but we always had fun. finaly we made it official, and we were a couple.
jeff tried for awhile to get my attention back to him. seems once i wasnt worshipping the ground he walked on anymore, he finaly realized what he was missing out on. one day i came in with these hickeys, and jeff threw a fucking tantrum. he couldnt stand it. and then a few weeks later, when i was floating on cloud 9 with jim, he admitted that yes he loved me too. how are you gonna wait 3 damn years of me chasing after you, admitting love, you breaking my heart repeatedly, and wait till the one damn time i am happy, to say that yea you love me now. fuck that. and he was crushed. but i never cared. for weeks he kept trying to get back with me. but i loved jim at first sight. i know it sounds cheesy, but i did. jeff kept trying to break us apart, but it never happened
now i see him, and my dreams are full of him. what is wrong with me?
i need to go shopping, so i can get my thoughts straight. im all fucked up!!
i know that im over jeff. even when i talked to him the other day i could tell that. when i told him to tell me if he didnt like me or not it wouldnt hurt my feelings, it was the first time it was ever true. he will never make me cry again i will never go back to feeling so unimportant again.never. so again WTF? why am i dreaming of him.
i kinda feel like crying. i really dont like this. youre probably thinking im a looney, and its no big deal. but it is. jim is the man of dreams. well theres a few mistakes, but mostly. jeff i thought was, but in the end i realized he was just an asshole with a good front.
when me and jeff first got together, he seemed so perfect. ALWAYS complimented me, new the difference in my makeup, perfume all the things that seemed so important. he was nice too. but lil did i know that everytime i was seeing him, he was seeing at least 2 others. in the beginning it broke my heart, then i didnt care just as long as i could have him(blushing). and eventually i grew to fall in love with him. even though we made plans 21 times that he never showed up for or called. but when he did show up i was in heaven. it was always great fun. right before i met jim jeff went through a change. a few months before i told him that i had fallen in love with him. then he left me to be with another girl. i was crushed but i still tried. im very persistant. anyway, he was finally all about me, and it seemed like we could really be together. then i met jim......
one day at work.. i saw a hot guy in a 2001 dark blue celica and he was fine!!!!! i was in mid conversation and he walked past me and i forgot what i was saying and just stared. i scoped around and found out who he was. everyone said he was a cocky asshole. but i was up for a challenge. the more we got to know each other,the less i saw jeff. i was falling hardcore for jim. he was so cool. we would hang out til 6am just talking. we never had to do anything or go anywhere, but we always had fun. finaly we made it official, and we were a couple.
jeff tried for awhile to get my attention back to him. seems once i wasnt worshipping the ground he walked on anymore, he finaly realized what he was missing out on. one day i came in with these hickeys, and jeff threw a fucking tantrum. he couldnt stand it. and then a few weeks later, when i was floating on cloud 9 with jim, he admitted that yes he loved me too. how are you gonna wait 3 damn years of me chasing after you, admitting love, you breaking my heart repeatedly, and wait till the one damn time i am happy, to say that yea you love me now. fuck that. and he was crushed. but i never cared. for weeks he kept trying to get back with me. but i loved jim at first sight. i know it sounds cheesy, but i did. jeff kept trying to break us apart, but it never happened
now i see him, and my dreams are full of him. what is wrong with me?
i need to go shopping, so i can get my thoughts straight. im all fucked up!!
posted by naughtygirl @ 8:58 AM
4 Comments:
At 1:59 PM,
Krista Springtead said…
are you sure that was a dream or just a nightmare??
i have a belief that every girl has a "JS". JS was the same to me as Jeff was to you.
He was the tanning salon guy that i had thought hung the moon since the first time i walked in the door in 1999.
his attitude was just.....so.....cokcy/flirty/confident/fun..i guess which made him hot to me.
but i never really talked to him. because i was SHY when i was 17.
anyway, i started working at that salon when i was 21 and within the first week of my working htere, we were dating.
but he ran me around constantly. would go out with his 'cousin' that i don't think exsisted...and would always be talking about these girls he "used to be romantic with". basically, he kept our 'relationship' a secret.
i didn't care. i was so thrilled to be dating him, that i wasn't going to be picky about it.
until it started occuring to me he was sleeping with practically every girl that walked into the salon doors.
beh. oh well...i can live in the glory knowing he probably has about 8 STD's and justice is served!! hA!
but JS is the one that we let walk all over us because we are just enraptured by them. every chick has one.
the end.
At 9:30 AM,
Queen on the run said…
sometimes dreams are just reminders of what we narrowly escaped from!
Don't give them one more thought after this.
Jeff doesn't deserve you and you don't deserve to be treated like that and you love Jim, that much is obvious to anyone who reads this page,he's all you talk about! That and shopping,(little jealousy on my part there!)
A dream is just a dream, it is like steam, it is intangible and muted. It means nothing but for the fact that your brain is sending itself images.simply to keep itself occupied while you lay there doing nothing and looking at nothing.THe brain must produce those images to stay sharp and our imaginations take that inch and run a mile with it.okay lots of steam but still try to catch steam in your hands and what do you get? a few drops of water if your really lucky!:)
At 10:49 AM,
boabhan sith said…
I agree!
I still from time to time have dreams about my X but I totally freakin' hate him.
He was a hottie and AWESOME in bed but, he was the biggest jerk on the face of the planet.
I did alot of breaking up with him but in the end after he begged and pleaded I would get back with him. I admit it, it was for the sex. I had other guys calling but once you've had the best it's hard to go back to "not the best." LOL
I wake up feeling disturbed by them too. THe thing is is that you and I both called it quits when we were done with it. You can be proud of that.
Some men only want you went they can't have you.
At 9:54 PM,
Unfaithful Wife said…
hey... i know what you mean when you wrote: "now there are a few things about jeff that i wish jim had..." my last boy friend had a very large cock that my husband simply can't even compare with. and i am always thinking about it at the weirdest times.
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