sighhh

ok im not quite as menstrual today. but im still depressed. i didnt get an email from jim today. dammit. i hate having to guess if hes ok. this army gf shit is the pits. i dont ever want to do this again. i mean it. anyway, things about the letter that bother me are:

1. he talks about getting engaged and in the picture we are married both with rings. but now he doesnt know if he ever wants to get married ever.

2. in the picture there is a baby in a stroller obviously ours..now he doesnt ever want kids. which is ok by me bc i dont want anymore. but why the change?

why do i feel like he doesnt love me as much as he used to? i dont like it. i dont like it at all. dammit crying again. i give up