another boring weekend

its time for my lover to come home. i cant handle these dull ass weekends anymore. they suck. im so tired of being so bored. and i think thats why i am becoming so miserable. today is blah. right now i am on the comp with my lover who is blah as well.

last night i went to randis after i dropped austin off at grannies. her friend charles came and by the time we all left there at 8 pm i was blitzed. so i came home and watched the fifth element which sucked. it was interesting enough for me to watch it but it sucked. good thing i was intoxicated. lol then i wrote jim a smut email as i always do when i am intoxicated..which makes him happy. lol

and ive been up since like 8:30. i actually woke myself up at 6am without an alarm to see if jim came on. but he didnt. so i cried. again. god i feel so weak without him and i hate it. i hate feeling weak. but i imagine anybody does really. he got my dirty pics and apparently likes them very much. but he says he cant look at them too good bc of people being around. im sure everyone has seen them.lol

i went to the dollar store today. yippy. lol and i need to clean my house and mow the grass. well see if it gets done. possibly depending on my boredom factor. i should at least do the grass today. i can clean tomorrow while i watch tv. lol

in a few weeks my friend gio will be coming from jersey to visit me. yayyyyyyy. jersey love is the best. and shes gonna bring me taylor ham and cheese on a bagel and a dozen bagels. bc jersey bagels are the shit! and i dont know if they have taylor ham anywhere else but there. they dont have it here. and its not regular ham..so dont say it is.lol when she comes we are gonna go to this thing called jasons woods. get all fuckered up and go. its got a haunted hayride and a 3d maze thats all scary and a real maze. im scared of the maze. will make me think of the shining..lol. and they have other scary stuff too. im so excited. but you know im retarded so i think well you dont know if some lunatic came and knocked out the guy in costume..stole it and has a real weapon and may kill you with it. you really dont know. i need to stop watching csi and shows of the like.lol

and i think thats it

i lurve you all have a great day