had a bad day again...

its only 1pm on a saturday. whats wrong with this picture? i dont knwo if its pms or if im just depressed or lonely..but god i am sad! and i hate being sad. i sent my sissy a text message and had her call me bc i wanted to talk to someone that loves me. i had a nice chat with her. i feel bad though bc shes all young and stuff..and i dont wanna bring her down bc im all unhappy. but i felt better just talking to her. and hearing her voice. i love her so much. and goddamn i miss her. shes so cute. she said she wished she could come visit me...i really wish she could too. bc i feel like i am just falling apart. i feel sad and i feel weak. and i just want someone i know here. to keep me company. i hate being alone. alot.

sighh. i watched the movie crash today. it was a good movie. made me cry and i believe that this is what started my whole mood. but you should rent it and give it a try.

i had a short talk with jim today. it was ok. i guess.

sighh i dont feel like typing anymore.