love story:the conclusion. and more

he looked at me for a minute and then he said, yes i mean it. ive been wanting to say it for awhile. but i wasnt sure if i should. i said ive been wanting to say it from the very beginning,but i was scared youd freak out and be gone. then we laughed,kissed and cuddled. its been 3 years and 3 months and 9 days. i love him much more than i could ever imagine. everyone said we would never last. haha to them. weve been through alot. he went away to bosnia with the army for 9 months, and during that time a supposed friend tried to sleep with me. it was a speed bump in the relationship. it took awhile to fix everything to perfection,but we did. his mom has been a bitch from the beginning, my mom died. theres been more drama with his family,not enough from mine. i got fat, and he has left me againfor 16 more months, but i love him so much. hes a smartass, hes not romantic at all, he tries but hes not,he pisses me off,but i love him to death. we will get married when he returns, and im very excited. i never ever wanted to get married till i met him. and the best part is when we do get married, our initials we be exactly the same. jvc. hes james vincent,im jacquelynne vanessa.lol to me thats a sign. i know im gay!!

anyway, not much happening here. so glad the work week is over. ive been hearing about a noreaster for monday. fucking snow i swear. but the biggest bitch of it all is im not allowed to miss any more days of work till the end of march. so even if its a damn blizzard i gotta go or i get fired. dammit. ill probable wreck. i have to go to the dreaded in laws to be's house tomorrow. i plan on dropping off the money and running. lol

omg, i was watching csi last night. didnt even get to see my man warrick yet,and my eyes kept closing. so i turned the tv off and went to sleep. well of course i was wide awake for a minute. then i passed out. then i woke up, and you know how you wake up and your like dazed,but you know your awake? well my heart started pounding really hard and i woke up and rolled over and there was this thing/person whatever, kinda tucking me into bed. it had either yellow clothing or a yellow glow to it and it smiled. my heart started pounding even more hard i thought i was gonna die or something.i closed my eyes really tight and tried to calm down and when i opened them again, it was gone. then i was apranoid the whole night and couldnt sleep. im really tired tonight. it was probably my mom. she hasnt tried to scare the hell out of me lately,but i dunno..ive never seen her before. ive felt her but not seen her.hmm

ok hope all of you are well.